____________[`chapters of my life]

2007-03-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

i think i ate too much again. but then again, whats too much for this never-grows-fat body? i need to gym with weisheng and joshua more. seriously! i need to pass that freaking napfa so that i get spared from all those conditioning. talking about conditioning. drama's was fine. but when christina came to teach mime and movement. 90% of the class were literally looking extremely distorted doing what she told us to do. haha. yes see this proves my point. i cant dance!

dad's gone to vancouver leaving the whole house to no one but me alone. this means that poor me has to iron, dry and wash my own clothes (in whichever order i think makes sense) oh yes and go to school on time. i think its a matter of time before i start the cabbing routine again. my dad's regretting to agreeing to send me to school (almost but not) everyday. its time i start explaining him the the concept of opportunity cost - the next best highest valued alternative forgone. hence, the opportunity cost of my sleep would be lesser attention in school and in the long run, it could well easily affect my future!

naddy enqing and marc are coming over to my place tomorrow. i need suggestions for entertainment in this virtually empty house. i mean like it doesn't even have plain water! yes i live on coke and 100plus. its like a substitute good. emma thinks im gonna get some disease. (is it hypertension)

talking about her, that girl just came from johor. though its just across the causeway, she seems to have a million and one things to complain about. dont worry girl! but honestly, i din really realise that acs inter' was that troubled.

and there ends my blogging mood. good luck to all ac band people in muse tomorrow! and to those doing west side, all the best!!!

2007-03-17T10:54:00.001+08:00

coming to the end of my holidays, im beginning to wonder what i have achieved so far. erm... the whole maths tutorial 3, a gp package? and yeah, thats about it. my week's basically a yet-to-finish session on an emotional roller coaster. pretty much everything that has happened (particularly at home) has been nothing but bullshit. sometimes i really wonder why we weren't given the chance to choose our parents. (well, mine even underwent a process of change- dont ask.)

im so pissed as to how i have been treated ever since shifted into the new apartment. so i thought that it would be a new beginning. to be very frank, i think i'd turn back time and take back all those words. living with my (assholic) father alone has been utterly annoying. i dont even feel like im living with my father honestly. its very much a man who goes to work and returns home straight to his room without uttering a word. and on the occasion he likes he makes incessant calls to my phone which i most of the time refuse to answer. people like him never seem to care about what he does. i always believed that everything one does is somehow or rather going to affect the people around you. no matter big or small, think about how others are affected before you think about yourself. in this case, the man who brought me to life is obviously a screwed up male chauvanist pig.

then the "mother". thank god for the inverted commas - dont ask. this one pisses me off to an extent i dont know where to start. often when she begins to class herself as an angelic figure that all should revere, i try hard to control my vomit. if anything, both my parents can go embalm themselves in the missionary sex position since they claim to love each other so much. i have got enough trying to keep quiet about all this shit when not a single day has gone smooth compliments of all this trouble (of other people's) that i have to deal with. dont ask what happened between those 2 nincompoops that has got me into this position. im just pissed off and annoyed at the fact that people who were responsible for bringing me into life is actually putting through such gloomy emotional torture every single day.

thanks marco for listening to my nonsensical rambles about theatre yesterday despite being physically exhausted. to be very honest i was just trying to divert my mind away from all the sadness ive been going through. and many apologies to the DEPers for not being able to join you guys yesterday. happy birthday charis! im done.

2007-03-07T20:12:00.000+08:00

AC AC AC!

2007-03-06T20:26:00.000+08:00

i feel extremely cheated.

2007-03-04T18:05:00.000+08:00

sitting my the window of my new apartment (but no i haven't moved). compliments of juvenile parents that is. since i haven't exactly talked about my class, let's just talk about it since they have been fans of my tagboard. starting with mr lim - the most amazing econs teacher i will ever meet. that man has more passion for economics than anything else. i must attribute much of my economical love to him. every lesson is extremely different and being in his class really teaches you to explore every fact of a question. in his class, its not just a matter of passing. its about aceing. for those who hate their econs lecturer or tutor, you'd thank god for giving you mr lim when you get him.

then comes the people i spend most of my time in school with - my oh-so-brilliant classmates. lets begin with my biggest fan - roxanne! whom i cannot stop bullying. and who has problem linking things together becos she is constantly on a different wavelength. this girl loves calling people nenepok. but in actual fact, she is the real nenepok. lets see, she writes paragraphs which are a page long and is planning to take h2 chinese lang and lit, h2 china studies in chinese and h1 gsc. cheena nenepok. haha. once again i am making fun of her now. "oi you still owe me 20 scoops of ice cream!"

then there's weisheng - the guy whom i swapped uniforms with. hailing from the cheena land of river valley, wearing his shorts made me look cadaverously thin (as if i dont look anorexic enough). oh yes, how can i ever forget about his miniscule handwriting that are smaller than the words in my pocket dictionary. weisheng is the only fellow you will find attempting to squeeze the whole maths tutorial into 1 piece of paper and the poor person (*coughs* me) copying his work has such a hard time. and yes, i think i am fatter than him.

thirdly, the girl who comes as a package together with weisheng (or so i think). grace! shan't play cupid but this dancer is deciding to ditch us for poly. how mean right?! dont get fooled by this seeming retro-looking, loves to wear yellow hairband girl becos she took O level art! nonetheless, i'd think she'd do well in poly with an articulate nature, suting mass communications to a perfect T.

samho and i conquer mount acjc every thursday morning together. well, at least for the past few weeks. the dreaded h1 lit class! we've been through shit together having to listen to a boring teacher (shan't say who) talk and talk and talk every lesson. however, we end up sleeping all the time. and i thought my sec sch lit teacher was not that fantastic. wait till you get that guy. you'll cry. oh yes, and samho takes mep! haha! i bet she loves the teachers. right? and we found the common person to bitch about in class as well! oh yes! next time when you cats on my papers its compliments of her. she vandalises on my paper far too much!

michelle who keeps trying to sell her band tickets nowadays. my edusave is completely dry the chinese teacher looked for me to get money for that h1 chinese book. she plays the trombone and sits right behind when playing for the band. the most poignant role as a member of the class would be her the handphone lender. her pink sony ericsson phone is in high demand for those who wish to break the high score of some brick-game like thing. you should see how incessantly mad people will queue just to try and break the high score. there sure is a high demand but a limited amount of supply. (an example of scarcity)

ok, i need to go out for dinner so ill continue with the others soon.

it has really been great pleasure being the class rep of this tremendously talented class. with subjects spanning from chinese lit to mep to dep to art, there is a plethora of talents available in 1aa4. everyday is filled with fun filled joy as we never fail to share about the trials and tribulations we face together during break time. it is definitely going to be sad seeing the reshuffling happen becos of jae - not knowing who's gonna stay, who's gonna come, who's gonna leave. but nonetheless, i really must say i had the best pae class i could ever ask for. all the best for those who are leaving (like grace and evona) and i would love to see us all together again!

cny

2007-02-18T13:40:00.000+08:00

i know we're not supposed to get mad or sad or anything during chinese new year; especially on the first day. but sometimes i really wonder how not to. what a thing to argue about! - keeping the volume down at night. for the many of you who know, im due to shift over to my new place very soon. right after chinese new year perhaps. so "mum" invited me to stayover yesterday night since i was already there. it was huge mistake.

my dad decided to invite friends over to play mahjong in the room opposite mine. *noise of tiles being washed* and naturally i couldn't sleep very well. furthermore, that freaking television was blasting and god knows who and i took ages to get to sleep.

missed church, woke up extremely cranky and unfortunately had to tolerate the nonsense of a female dog. and if she claims mahjong is the kinda happening stuff she wants in this place i have to call home, screw yourself. i dont deny that much of the tradition during cny includes trying our luck now and then with relatives. however, i dont think it means doing so till you affect the well being of other people. i am close to reporting her to the national council for problem gambling.

reunion dinner was as usual. you heard no one's voice but hers. i really wonder at times what the significance of reunion dinner is.

god please help me. im trying to like this house!

so much has happened since the last time i updated. my horrendous O level results for a start. i mean good enough for me to stay in ac, but not having a single a1 is extremely depressing. lets not talk about sad stuff.

on the same night though, was night/of/laughter - my first performance with ac-s ian theatre. i must say it was a good experience playing sidney lipton. wouldn't say that it was the best run we've had, but nonetheless, presentable enough for the audience. kester was line perfect! nol really came a long long way considering the number of blastings we survived.

guess i wont be doing alot of productions this year because of my committments to choir. oh believe me, singing 20 songs on stage is different from doing it in the bathroom (dont you love the acoustics in there?). and english songs are an extremely rare find being in the college choir. so yes. i shall aim to work that lazy diaphragm and not be dizzy after using my head voice for 10 minutes.

enough of rambling. today doesn't seem like chinese new year at all.

internetless

2007-01-20T14:32:00.000+08:00

dear all,
many apologies for not being able to frequently update. my internet is down at the moment. or rather, cancelled cos i was supposed to shift to my new place by now. whoever, due to unforseen circumstances renovations have been delayed and i have been internet-less.

nonetheless, i shall make full use of the net that i just stole. visited the dental today to get sealants for my teeth. that doctor is seriously fast when he scales. i was expecting him to allow me to gargle after he finishes one layer but he went on to the next. and you can obviously imagine the residue that was left in my mouth. when i finally got to spit it out, oh god, it was liberation.

night-of.laughter rehearsals have been going on the way and it was a pleasure working with kester and darius. im supposed to have memorised the lines by now. but well, its darn difficult doing so. nonetheless, for those who hope for a night of comedy and light heartedness, pls dont drop me an sms (not an email) so that i can reserve tickets for you. its on the 9th and10th of february at acjc.

so yes, here's a very short update. anyways, gotta go. toodles!

life so far

2007-01-09T19:20:00.000+08:00

catch-up

it definitely isn't the best thing to be the only one posted from broadrick. day one of orientaion was extremely silent for scylla though sheng yang, charmaine and lydia (our ogls) tried and tried and tried to hype us up. perhaps what really got my spirit up was the mass rally. gosh. to see an entire school cheer with that kind of energy is not something one would find everyday. oh yes. and the discipline talk that was first on the agenda. hmmm. not very lenient i can tell. oh well. rules are meant to be broken.

day two was memorable because of how it disfigured me. having danced under the sun unnoticingly for a few hours, about half of scylla ended up sun burnt (ouch!). you wouldn't believe how much aloe vera gel i slapped on at home just to keep the pain down. perhaps this was also the dirtiest day. colleges nowadays seem to have endless ideas on how to sabotage the new students to their greatest pleasure. after all, its in the name of making new friends and bonding. right? haha.

day three was perhaps the day where we really started to open up. dancing like crazy at the beginning spared us the option of getting into the mud again. nothing much on this day.

day four (a saturday). there was undoubted amounts of reluctance to attend school on saturday initially. thank god it wasn't as bad. the entire scylla lunched at new york new york. it was super fun! and the food's really good. we ganged up to give the ogls a treat for all that they have done for us, though they tried really hard not to allow that to happen. btw, new york new york has free cotton candy. EAT EAT EAT!

this week, we started with our introductory lectures. not the best i'd say. though i find biology the most interesting so far. dont ask me why i was there. haha. but rest assured i will never take the subject. never. i dont exactly like what we're doing for gp though. its meaningless. but i can't really wait for real lessons to start.

nadia!- dinner!!!!!!! thurs? fri? sat? im craving for fish!
marco- chicken rice!!!!
enqing- im jealous of your freeness!
emma- babies learn to love new environments!
scylla- we're fun people! movie under the stars when arr?

ciao.

2007-01-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

GO ACJC!

im burnt. by the sun. and it does hurt.

nyr

2007-01-02T10:09:00.000+08:00

my resolutions as promised

1. thy will gain weight.
2. thy shall start reading the newspapers daily
3. thy must start saving

im burnt. but tanner. school's tomorrow. its back to the 6am regime.

2006-12-31T18:53:00.000+08:00

HAVE A HAPPY 2007!

new year resolutions will be up tomorrow. and we're FINALLY going sentosa!

2006-12-30T00:19:00.000+08:00

6/6 decided to have a tiny exclusive class gathering today at ms e's place. i didn't expect to see su lao shi there today but it was kinda cool seeing her after such a looooonnnngg time. the day went past with along of eating, seating, chatting and gossiping.

sparks were indeed flying between 42 twelve year old students as we began collating the number of people who actually liked each other. people were actually fighting for girls? haha. its funny to think back at it.

pepper lunch for dinner was sweet. the few of us walked around town smelling like beef after we "cooked" our meals. im tired of writing already. sorry.

2006-12-25T12:17:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

yesterday's christmas dinner was one of the best in years. many thanks to emma for having me over. haha. but luck was down on bingo though. and the only thing on the baby's mind was sleep due to jetlag and all. haha. but it was really good la. the food especially. haha. though im having rash now.

ok. meeting up with nad marc eq later. more presents *smirks*

whistles

2006-12-20T20:39:00.000+08:00

today was good.
went to work (yes dewei went to work).

basically it was a kiddy drama camp for those age 7-9. my first job since the holidays started. and boy is it tiring work. gotta teach and baby sit and everything. furthermore, its with kids. aside from some of them being adorable, they have short attention spans. so you have to be super spontaneous during demonstrations to gain their attention. can just imagine myself being stupid when were asked to be an electric fan. its just a tableau. they do it alllllll the time.

its scaled-down christmas shopping this year as i started some of them in thailand. orchard road is jam packed. with everlasting lines at the gift wrapping counters, that itself is a good enough deterrence for one to wrap items themselves.

ok im really dry. im off

short and sweet

2006-12-16T01:41:00.000+08:00

confession: i have no idea what i achieved today.

let me start by saying my ass hurts badly. im telling you what happened even if you dont wanna know. freak weather conditions are not uncommon in singapore nowadays. the blazing sun can make us sweat to death in the morning, but those eerie dark clouds love making stopovers in singapore towards the late afternoon. global warming? i dont really care. all i know is that a slippery and wet overhead bridge caused me to slip and fall on my ass while on the way to acjc.

seriously, having a bony ass DOESN'T help. GOD GIVE ME FATS! i went to watch silent night at olps yesterday night with marc, enqing and rishik. haven't seen rishik like in months and now he's got a goatee. haha. got it. you couldn't find a shaver in chennai. then after we met jas, debbie, michelle, kathy and all. basically i thought the play was intended to be devil-wears-prada-ish. but nonetheless, it was good acting that brought it out. kathy got the emo adolescent role again. haha. reminiscent of skins.

imagine whatever is written hereafter is by a completely different person (i'm bipolar *rolls eyes*)
tolerance? have you ever been through a situation where you tried to be nice so much so that this niceness gets taken advantage of. why did i even bother to give you my support? why did i bother to always make an attempt to delude myself to give in all the time? why did i even try being nice? and so i thought you were different from others. some thoughts just remain as thoughts. im seriously tempted to just dump a plethora of vulgarites right this instant. fuck. i really dont feel like writing anymore. thanks.

welcome back to singapore

2006-12-14T13:32:00.000+08:00

a bad first impression i'd say as the plane touched down in suvarnabhumi. the airport authorities in singapore have little to worry about as the unfinished works reign throughout the new bangkok airport. competititon? airports in asia boasts as the world's best. with many like changi international and chek lap kok (hong kong) providing great facilities; much ought to be done before the thais can expect their airport to compete within the world arena.

the first evening in bangkok was probably the day i did the most shopping.

seriously, this was day 1.

already i found enough problems managing the bags. but nonetheless, i still went on doing the same the next few days. :)

by the 3rd day, there was no longer enough space.

in short, i did a ton of shoopping in this orient of the east. thailand however, is not just a country suited for the shopaholic on budget. often, it is hard not to be intrigued by the deep culture of this developing nation. as yellow banners that read "long live the king" are seen more often than traffic lights, i can only imagine what the longest reigning monarch, has done for the siamese. at times i wonder what a good place thailand would be with better governance.

the ambassador hotel on sukhumvit was where i stayed. walk out to the main road and one would realise how dangerous it is to be driving in the country. differentiating between a one-way or two-way street is arbitrary. all day long, notorious traffic is peppered with speeding motorcyclists. even if one gets caught, they could always bribe the officers under the table, get away with the fine and speed off again.

it is no deny that food in thailand is seriously heaven. i would go back there for another week of chicken rice every single meal and not get sick of it. nadia would miss the donuts. oh yes, and their waffles. yum yum. *questions self* why din i buy more at mbk?

making trips down to phat phong at night for their bazaars was an eye opener to the other side of thailand. the words "DVD, VCD, SEX" effectively selling pornography are intended to attract the running testosterone farang. the bars here have no cover charges. eager bar girls dressed in the skimpiest of outfits hold up signs reflecting cheap beer trying to attract any possible tourist.

many thais are trapped in the vicious poverty cycle - the rich get more affluent and the poor are trapped in eternal slums. perhaps that is the reason why many girls in thailand decide to sell their bodies as a form of income.

every street in bangkok is sparsely bordered with beggars. many are incapable of working, others have infant in their arms. i cannot help but wonder if there is any form of social service to assist such people. having a modern shopping mall like central world selling all forms of designer brands. one could just take 10 steps out and someone would come with a cup begging for pennies. what a stark contrast...

admist all the darkness of thailand, the people of the nation are still extremely loyal to their king. the yellow shirts worn by the thais on mondays drown the entire city in the colour of royalty. it is no wonder the king of thailand was awarded the human development lifetime achievement award by the united nations. in 2007, when king bhumibol adulyadej celebrates his 80th birthday, the thais would probably reunite once again for this significant celebration.

ok enough about thailand. i must say my first trip to bangkok was fufilling. the shopping bit was excellent without a doubt. someone just needs to invite me back there again. i'd so shop till i drop again.

bangkok

2006-12-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

the recently concluded fashion f-iesta was indeed another highlight for the y-two-y network. in case you were wondering, im writing all these with hyphens and all so ian or ranjeeeet wont find this blog. haha. nonetheless i definitely enjoyed my duty handling the backstage. once again, i was thrown into the frenzy of babysitting 30 odd models plus make-up artists and hairdressers. imagine the chaos reigning in both rooms.
i thought the nicest thing was how yours truly actually managed to work with carla. yes. we worked together. remembering how i always had 1001 things to say about her, without a doubt, things changed this year. boasting vibrant designs and sensual choreography, the audience sure had alot to look forward to in this year's event. not forgetting the glamourous stage outlook that left many in awe. the segments i enjoyed most was undoubtedly ming and christina with their wings and priscilla's entertaining walk. in short, i for sure preferred this year's event over last year's.
i'll be leaving for the orient of the east tomorrow. bangkok that is. pardon my metaphors. its been quite a while since i boarded a plane and i'd prolly be looking childish doing so tomorrow. looking forward to alot of shopping! i really hate packing. hate hate hate. its a morning flight. well at least i have to reach the airport in the morning. so yup. i should go and sleep. [enqing i updated. see!]

2006-12-01T18:53:00.000+08:00

nadia's attempt to intrude (part 1 of inifnity)

hahahahahaha. i shoved i pushed and i conquered. anyway its MY laptop and MY house. (: kidding la, the whole process was less violent. more of puppy eyes and whining and pleading. though he insists that as my permanent best friend forever my feminine wiles dont work on him. snorts (whispers : sure) anyway, CAN SOMEONE PLEASE STOP ADAM'S AUDITION MUSIC AS HIS SISTER IVE OFFICIALLY GONE CRAZY (:
okay. i shall be nice and leave dewei to blog now.
we can't wait for thailand, right dewei?
[nadia answers yes on dewei's behalf]

dear diary,
today is sucky. my voice has deteriorated beyond recognition. that doctor who charged me $42.70 for consultation and prescription better be able to save me. its really sucky not being able to talk much due to my horrible sounding vocals and imagine the deprivation to christmas carols. here's a personal reccomendation, buy corrinne may's album - the gift. its nice :) <- see nadia influenced me with these smileys. i dont usually use them.

nonetheless, im [stuck] at her humble abode waiting to attend a concert at vj. enqing's in a terrible mood - i can detect melancholy in his voice. as for the monkey, having his eyes glued to an elevator game on game boy, i have no idea why. dear audience: enqing asked a question - should he highlight his hair? well, i know im against it. ranjeet just did the same thing a few days ago and a horrendous outsome resulted in him re-dyeing the entire thing back to black the same night. imagine how many hair follicles he spoilt.

yup. think im sick of typing already. bye!

2006-11-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

fever's down.

for a second yesterday reminded me of susila's illness in "the english teacher". the poem that krishna wrote for his dear wife as she was diagnosed with typhoid. i miss literature. so much. perhaps free time now should be spent in literary pursuits. however, dewei is going back to sims 2 at least for awhile. i miss doing no brainer stuffs like playing such games. believe me, especially during this period of time when all the time is spent only on fashion fiesta, dep and i guess thats it, there's like tonnes of time to go out with friends, play stupid things etc - a privillege (sp?) i haven't enjoyed in some time. (pardon my language. this post is [terribly] grammatically unsound)

the new-york limes bestseller

3 bengs and a lian

just a picture we took at topher's birthday barbeque when marco tried to educate nadia and i about the names of his family members. however, because of the large number, i think i forgot quite abit (actually... alot). but midnight sale and all was rather fun and naddy bought nice stuff for her lucky cousins (or is it nephew). failing memory. oh ya (finally), enqing's last paper - stupid bio S. GOOD LUCK! i think its time to retire to sims 2! nights people!

sucky

2006-11-23T11:38:00.000+08:00

he wakes me up before the crack of dawn

just to tell me "i better stop being so fickle-minded"

"or not i think its better if you study in canada"

i remember the times when you were completely aganist

my choice of doing theatre studies and drama

now as i think back - how ironical

*rolls eyes* looks like i dont have a choice

im not gonna let this stupid decision spoil another day

prom was cool. qixian told me i looked like a pap person. haha why didn't i think of that. again i emceed. this time very unprepared. prolly spoke more singlish than ever on stage. but it was fun. i was supposed to only do the opening and closing. however, because muhammad ended up being voted as one of the finalists, i had to be nancy o'dell and ask the finalists ms universe like questions. as usual, we got typical ms congeniality answers proclaiming world peace.

a picture from yesterday. with emma's trademark seahorse pose

just an update, im headed to acjc for first 3 months. dep rehearsals have kicked in for west side story. deanna called again. west side story auditions for guys are next thurs at 2pm. prolly wont get in seeing how fast the seniors learn. its as if school started but i guess im gonna just have to work it. lest some idiots repeat their routine like this morning. oh and samanthat wyreweden is gonna be my classmates(i think). she got in too! i shall try to be happy today. what a challenge.

pissed

2006-11-13T16:57:00.000+08:00

how's im fucking pissed.
i can't wait to move out of this house.

today couldn't have been worse. i would so gone to sch at 2 thinking lit was an afternoon paper. thank god nad called to save me. the paper sigh... should have been good. context based was the opening passage. if only i had more time. my part b answers added up to like 3 pages. which is pathetic considering how much more others were writing. furthermore, i had points to elaborate but the time constraint forced me to write very conclusive sentences for the whole of my last paragraph.

amaths is tomorrow. moodless to study after what happened. seriously, this house can afford everything expect food. sometimes i feel as if im living in sudan where there's a famine or sth. im hell in the midst of my exams otherwise i wouldn't even rely on imbeciles living in this household for that basic sustinence of life. wtf.

its also kinda stupid how amaths on thursday is delayed by an hour because of expected traffic congestion due to b.ush's arrival. honestly, if i were him, i'd prolly be feeling guilty delaying an entire nation their exams. an excuse like closing roads for the travel of ONE person due to security reasons is kinda lame. i mean honestly, just get into a bulletproof car or something.

i can't wait for this week to be over. amaths and chemistry left. after which, dewei's gonna shop, watch step up, play sims 2, catch up prison break, some funny cantonese drama and rehearse for ac drama. nothing which require the exhaustion of my brain cells. yup. adios!

today sucks

2006-11-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

today sucked. period. my brain is liquidated of all the energy it has.

i think the ministry (of ed) should look into the geography elective syllabus. today was shit. geog elect was perhaps the only hope of salvaging my combined humans marks given my pathetic skills at social studies. however, i was clearly deluded by that gleam of hope. effectively, i found myself doing an ss essay while tackling the development question. not that i didn't know how to answer; but i thought it was just plain stupid for me to mug up factors and problems of development and later answer a question to be of social studies in nature. seriously, it irks me to know how stupid the ed system has become - a student's intelligence is judged based on ONE exam.

bio was f*ked up. as usual. to those who found it "damm easy!" my hat's off. the standard for the science papers has been set (a few notches higher than expected that is). honestly, i need a miracle to pull me through from tomorrow till the end of the papers. otherwise, im positively certain im not gonna be able to stay in ac. (wth dewei youre not even in that school yet!) i know... dep script is lying on my desktop. highly doubts im gonna make it. an ugly french soldier and a somewhat mentally retarded kid. what on earth have i gotten myself into?

heard from others that mrs lim's leaving broadrick next year. thats another excellent teacher gone. i sometimes ask myself whats gonna happen to broadrick in years to come. good teachers are leaving and leaving. its hard imagine what is going to happen to some of the reputation the seniors have worked so hard to maintain. there's emaths paper 2 tomorrow. good luck people!

2006-11-01T11:23:00.000+08:00

one of those smses
i pondered for a long time
an attempt at a reply
puts me at a loss for words
a whirlpool of emotions
or shall i say i honestly dont know

i miss the days we spent
together as one whole
the word to describe was simply fun
those were the good ole days
when my mind was pure and untainted
by the many politics of life

now i start to think and regret
the things i took for granted
what the fuck have i done
if only someone knew
some things i wish i would say
but call me a coward i darent

its been a long time since we talked
aint it amazing how time can fly
He taught me to let bygones be bygones
and a sudden realization told me i should
in life you make decisions
but things like this you just cant choose

help im clueless on what to say

dewei the emo writes another (sucky) poem. my thoughts for the day (i mean yesterday). super careless for chem practical. wasn't even tough. lit's tomorrow. can't wait for all this shit to be over. the only thing that made me happy was enqing's thingy. he's so talented in arty stuff. *gets reminded of how i never score above 55 for art* thats all for blogging. gonna do geog now. im off.

hari raya?

2006-10-25T18:07:00.000+08:00

ladies and gentlemen i have an important announcement to make. nad's fat. really. look at her childhood photos. she being an irritant now cos she's beside me. and HELP! my nose is diffusing. on a rainy day. and marco just called nadia. he wants to bathe at her place. ok this post is extremely random. i'd reckon he's prolly drenched now. my mommy say ask hi t bathe along the way then we jstprovide him with hairdryer and towel.
haha deweis nose is running. run run run. hahahs. i am NOT fat. and i was CFUTE last time okay. now i still am la.. but, you know. haha. dewei is a dong dong (: eq is dongdonger and marc.. well, marc is just dongdongestestestestestestestestestest. whee.

clearly the exhibition of bad linguistics capability was demonstrated by the fat girl. though she clearly proves otherwise in reality. and guess what, she's messing food up now. she needs help on maturity. even fruits do it faster. nad>NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! DEWEI IS A BUUUUUUULLLLLY, please lor, my engrish marks were higher than yours. no need moderate. sticks out tongue.

ok wait this is getting real dumb. oh and im going thailand! shut up you, ive been cooped up in this puny island for months (wait years). you know what im kinda sick of blogging. im off!

thankfulness - in words

2006-10-21T13:21:00.000+08:00

thankfulness - in words

dear mrs remedios since im writing a poem
i think ill start with you
we hope we’ve been the lave-ly stu-ents
who didn’t make your hair stand too much
your English lessons have been enriching
your stories always intriguing

oh mrs lim
no burette can ever accurately measure
the number of times you’ve told us
to titrate drop by drop
or how you seem to love the googles
that make us look like god knows what

for every lesson you always remind
how many more times we would be greeting you
mrs tan we will miss your lessons
for you’re the epitome of geog teacher
despite the short time we’ve spent
our class left the sanctuary with that extra bit of knowledge

yes ms huang we’ll miss your lab
and that stinky heart we had to dissect
at times I think we’d better be thankful
for a permanent teacher like you
now the bio practical’s over
we’ll work doubly hard for theory

then there’s mrs rajah
who came in with a big surprise
we hope we didn’t disappoint you
too much with those bad marks
but rest assured we’ll work harder
to show the true results

i remember your words about tys
how this year there would be no time
your knowledge for physics is inexhaustible
and though i dropped the subject
yes i still do listen in
thank you so much ms sin

to the mother tongue teachers
you are probably where our cultures lies
we’ll ace the November paper
and on behalf of all 4e students
谢谢老师们多次的帮助
terima kasih cigku

i’ve not forgotten ms mastura
though they’re only 3 lit students in my class
im hope this poem works
but don’t ask me to analyse it
thank you so much for everything
i wouldn’t be standing here had it not been for you

we always leave the best for last
and ms chua you get two stanzas
we hope we’ve been a good enough class
that won’t cause anymore trouble
two years as our form teacher
there’s not enough space to say thank you

you always had extra concern for all of us
and maths lessons has never been better
its peppered with your trademark jokes
and we’ll surely miss laughing at it
but i guess our best present for you
would be to truly ace the exams

there are so many more teachers we wish to thank
like ms vasughi for her guidance in sec one and two
and mr stanley tan whose floorball bonded the class
the list goes on and on
these 4 years we’ve spent have truly meant a lot to us
the memories we’ve made cannot be tagged with a price

years down the road as we look into our wardrobe
that orange jersey that denotes our index number
will probably be covered with that sheen of dust
nonetheless it serves as a reminder for everything we’ve done
we’re all in this together
we’re all for one and one for all

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this poem i read while given the opportunity to deliver the vote of thanks yesterday during graduation ceremony. the last day of school meant perhaps alot to me. well, not only did we camwhore for like 2 hours before being convinced to leave the hall. but the camming didn't seem to stop as we haunted the teachers down wherever they were. sadly, the HODs were stuck in the conference room doing promotions and we couldn't take pictures with them. darn that princip.al. nonetheless, ive really enjoyed my stay at broadrick. and to all 4eA people, our spirit (of making noise) stands strong. all the best for you physics practical *sniggers* and the rest of your written papers!!!

oh yes and please send photos to me!!!

throat

2006-10-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

my throat hurts bad

forbidden city

2006-09-24T13:52:00.000+08:00

forbidden city: portrait of an empress

A historical retelling of the story of China's Empress Dowager, the story is seen from the eyes of an American painter, Kate Carl, who is commissioned to paint the Empress's portrait. The Empress recounts her amazing journey from a young imperial concubine to become the Empress of China and the pressures she faced. The musical explores the myths surrounding her reign, from the controversial death of her only son to her ambitious tussle for power. Having played to 60,000 people in 2003, Forbidden City is Singapore's most successful musical to date. Starring Asian sensation Kit Chan.
http://www.sistic.com.sg/cms/events/index.html?content=303

for the many of you out there who are intrigued by the many pages of china’s history, do catch forbidden city. empress dowager cixi is one of the most prominent figures of Chinese history and being able to understand her life through this breathtaking musical is indeed one-of-a-kind. the musical features kit chan who plays yehenara, the young empress. kit’s immaculate vocals accentuated every detail of the music and despite sitting at circle 1, I could feel the emotions being vocalized crystal clear. the costumes were also an epitome of Chinese culture. my eyes were particularly drawn to those of the main actors and the concubines for the outfits looked tremendously good on stage. oh and nadia and i loved the attention they gave to the floor. haha.

for broadrick eldds members who do remember leigh mcdonald, our last drama instructor, she was acting as the American painter in the forbidden city and god can she sing. now why didn’t she stay longer? oh wait, it’s the principal (again). talking about the school, i just remembered the first right decision they made - making mrs anne tan covering vice principal. mrs anne tan is prolly one of the best teachers i have every come across and believe me, she is darn good at geography. can you believe im graduating? well i can’t.

oh, and im intending to catch the vienna boy’s choir anyone wants to join me?

chocolates for lunch. how pathetic.

ss

2006-09-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

i F**KING FAILED ss.
someone help me please! i need to count this subject!

the depressed YDW

randome

2006-09-20T16:17:00.000+08:00

one of the high notes of this week is definitely the end of prelims. life has been humdrum ever since i began to bury head in piles of books preparing for the prelims. god do i have endless things to say about every single paper. standards of all the papers have been raised you can be certainly sure that all my classmates will have list-long of complains for all the subject teachers.

having a teacher like ms chua ee ling, i thought that her speed marking skills meant that we would all our maths papers back today. contrary to that, we didn't get a single paper back from her. apparently the whole class did very badly for amaths and there are alot of failures. well, i aint surprised cos the paper was considerably difficult and i left out a ton of questions.

however, we did get english back today. it is indeed heartening to see how the class' english has improved over the year. i remember myself complaning about mrs remedios' then - getting above 20 require the linguistics capability of william shakespeare. emma (wait it's oma now) and i are partners in crime when it comes to bad mouthing teachers. the squeaky baby constantly hardly excels in composition because of the lack of anecdotes in her essays. furthermore, she gets marked down for oral because of a squeaky voice and often one should wonder what she can do about such a "problem"? for me, the thing i cannot accept till now is her stinging on grammar marks in summary. i think the highest i have gotten is 6 out of 10 (which is pathetic).

let's just say that i am just extremely pleased about my english grades. it's the FIRST time i've ever gotten an A since stepping into broadrick. but more credit goes to 4eA as a whole because for the first time we achieved 100% passes for english and other than 2 students, the remanining of us improved by at least one grade. CHEERS TO US!

i guess now that prelims are over, the thought of me leaving broadrick in about a month's time is starting to set in. this year flew right past and it seemed like yesterday for which the year started. right now, i think i shall be relaxing for a while before going back to those mugging days.

naddy and enqing finally end their exams tomorrow. we're supposed to go out, but class just has to end at like 1530 for me because of lit (but we're still going ;)). and ms mastura is returning us the lit paper. i hope that i managed to secure at least a b3 this time for literature. sometimes i really wonder what i have to do to get that dumb distinction. literature, not doubt difficult to score, is one of those subjects which can take one far in life especially when one's job is non-scientific. which is why im putting in more painstaking effort for the subject.

it can be rather taxing especially when lessons are conducted after soon but it's all going end very very soon.

prelims

2006-09-10T00:51:00.000+08:00

GOOD LUCK ALL THOSE TAKING YOUR PRELIMS!

God Bless,
YDW :)

to say or not to

2006-08-21T18:59:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since ive updated this blog and already i see a layer of dust covering this webpage. over this time, skins successfully came to a close ;). please pray for my brother if you guys could, he met with an accident in hong kong some time ago and after awakening from comatose, he is currently suffering from temporary amnesia. its been really difficult for me all this while as i must admit the sight of him being bandaged and nosefed continues saddens me terribly. treasure your family members while they still in the house as you do. get well soon, bro

the reason why im blogging today is primarily due to a strange occurence that happened today in class. should one actually cry over spilt milk?
note: in confidentiality interest of those involved, no names shall be mentioned. unless you're innocent that is.

guys in my class decided to play with their newly-acquired laser pointer during mrs remedios' english class. in attempts to irritate her, they decided to shine it towards various parts of her body. unfortunately, they're amatuerish pranks were soon uncovered after mrs remedios realised the light being directed at her not once but twice. when she decided to confront the class on who the Culprit was, no one let the cat out of the bag until the Culprit turned himself in. (ed. comment: that's probably the only righteous action you did for the day)

however, the irony comes when she decides to question why such childish and immature acts were actually produced by a secondary 4 student who studies in arguably the best class in my school. one of the other boys who was also involved in the situation, apologised for his misbehaviour and was immediately forgiven.

things weren't exacly the same for this Culprit. at times, i wonder how much courage he had to garner just to apologise for such negligible mischief. honestly, its hard for me not to think that it probably wasn't his conscience that made him do so, the Culprit was simply pressured by the class.

in such a situation, one would prefer to settle it once and for all. in this case, the Culprit decided to talk back to the teacher after she commented how long it took for him to feel apologetic. "there is no point crying over spilt milk," were the words (or sth along these lines) that escaped those belligerent lips of his. this depicted his true feelings at that time and it wasn't guilt or remorse plauging his conscience; even the apology was an unsincere one. at that instant, i thought how similiar this scene was to many that i have faced as an unfortunate classmate of his for the past 4 years. the atypical character of him never feeling guilty after making a mistake has got him into several cauldrons of hot soups ever since day 1. to start with, get your brains checked and ask the doctor which stimulus in your brain made you want to play with such a toy and mess around with our dear hod of english.

furthermore, it seems as if the upbringing he's had never seemed to come into play. like which parent wouldn't teach you to apologise after making a mistake or even if hectic work schedules caused that to slip, i believe teachers would have instilled that during civics and moral education lesson. or least living on planet earth for 16 years should have brought some common sense into that god-knows-what-filled brain of his.

its absolutely ridiculous to be defensive over a situation like this. ask yourself how many times you've reacted explosively to meagre issues that would often would have not been noticed by others. and to think you dare say that there is no point crying over spilt milk. to certain extents yes that statement is true. but it isn't a universal statement. the least you could do is apologise for spilling the milk. God created this earth for his sons and daughters to help each other in times of trouble and not to be hostile to each other.

the reason why i am saying all this is to tell the world that im on mrs remedios side. she has been wrongly treated by the "saint" of the class. who can deny she has indeed done alot to make the class improve in english and even though there are times when we disagree about certain things with her, she has done her part as our english teacher this year. i am indeed grateful that there is someone who believes in my pubic speaking ability and even linguistics capability.

my stand on this entire issue?
it's not about the apology that one yearns for. an apology on the superficial level is as good as one not said. its time the culprit start taking responsiblity for his life because the world doesn't live with such cowards. coward because you never admit your mistakes and it is always others who give in even when innocence is proven. im not here to play god, but i can comfortably say that little would agree with your unjustifiable defence. this post is prolly going to end up with one of the teachers because is publicly condemning someone on the world wide web. honestly, good luck to you if you insist on taking such philosophies in life; at least i'll bear the consequences i have to if i get in trouble.

otherwise, if your conscience beseeches salvation, pray to Him and ask Him for help.

blogging in the computer lab

2006-07-25T10:33:00.000+08:00

here i am stuck in the computer lab not being able to do the ne quiz thingy while the whole class is stuck building new land. really bored actually. i haven't exactly been blogging for an awfully long time so this post prolly summarises much of my life over the past week.

for a start, pesa was rather eventful. haha, im actually a finalist! but extremely unfortunately, i was struck with a dose of horrendous illness which included fever, cough, sore throat, flu etc etc. and honestly, every good speaker would know that sore thorat is the worse nightmare. and yes, it didnt' work to my favour. was strugguling with prepared speech. and i thought i had that bagged. but impromptu was rather surprising. i was very satisfied with my own performance. but congrats to lynn! she won! accurate predictions on my part.

anyways, family's not exactly been in ideal condition these days. dad just had to find alot of trouble with me all the time. prelims are in like god knows how many days and im not exactly having alot of time to practice and revise. blah when is this saga ever going to end.

emma's being a bitch. incessant complaints about how miss puerto rico shouldnt have won miss universe and japan doesn't exactly look that pretty. bla bla. but i thought japan hadv that "asian cultured pearl" look. whats with my analogies.

SKINS is on the 8th of august. busy busy busy. recess is coming, bye!

malaysia truly asia

2006-06-18T21:54:00.000+08:00

typing this post in my cute little hotel room in kuala lumpur. its been 6 shirts, a jean and a pair of shoes. much however, remains on the shelves of the stores and it easily blows my already volatile budget.

the trip so far has been rather normal. not much to be glad about. my father should seriously learn how to drive slower. on the way here, he nicely got fined for excessive speeding. and indeed, even nadia commented that my father was driving at insane's pace for the time we took to reach kuala lumpur.

if youre planning to stay at a hotel in kuala lumpur, try hotel istana. but note, pay like 50 ringgit more and take the grand deluxe rooms instead. there is an evident quality of comfort in the grand deluxe rooms because of the recent change it undergone. the orange shaded carpets looks much more welcoming than the mismatched red-blue coloured ones in the normal deluxe rooms.

sigh... if only my father could be this much more generous is his spending. i might be able to secure a few better buys to add to my pathetic wardrobe. but anyhows its on to malacca tomorrow. doubt if im gonna get much stuff, but still i guess this much needed break is the only thing that will keep me going for the next 2 terms.

nadia bought 2 pairs of heels today. and yes fancy meeting her overseas. but im craving for more pool after that day. its time i go bathe. goodnight!

dsasd?

2006-06-10T15:44:00.000+08:00

this morning's dialogue was a top-quality sleeping pill. to be painfully honest, those people who were presenting their recoomendation papers should seriously consider brushing up their speaking skills. words like provocative was pronounced by the syllabi as pro-voh-kay-tive, words which managed to escape the lips of a student from one of the top jcs in singapore.

indeed the reccomendations were good insights in many wanting a better education system for the future of singapore as said by the minister. however, more often than not, is the driving force for a straight A results not for the sake for themselves but by the fear of not being able to secure a reputable job in society.

i was on the bus when i overheard how one lady was lamenting on the difficulty to find a quality job in singapore. her age is a negative factor and many job agencies simply fail to find a vacancy for her leaving her to struggle on a part-time job at 7-11. its rather ironical how today's society is becoming one that is almost a ruthless boxing ring.

reminds me of my pesa speech actually, my dad, who has meticulously planned out the next 80 years of my life in hopes that i get a good job bla bla bla. but i guess the lesson's on truly learnt when one experiences the hardship of trying and failing.

the next question? DSA. ms chua has been constantly asking me to apply for vjc on the thoughts that i do hold quite alot of achivements from the south east cdc. very frankly, im rather lost on whether i should or not. my initial thoughts of doing so vanished after the realisation of acjc not accepting drama but the only reason why im re-thinking about my choices is solely because im rather surprised at my own work progress.

theatre production is getting on the way and for this, much of the past 2 weeks has been spent rehearsing and settling the administrative matters of the play. its surprising how i actually forgot about product rule for differentiation, one of the most integral concepts in the chunk of chapters. conclusion, the books need to come out soon.

i guess the prospects of me leaving the country is rapidly diminishing. don't think my father is gonna come back anytime soon and hence i'd prolly figure a route out for myself. but im thankful he's allowing me to buy a new ipod after mine died under the hands of emma lau (emma,"but i really didn't do anything!" dewei,"shut up! you last touch.")

pesa's on the 28th june and im taking a seemingly long time to shorten my script. whatever actually. but i will do it. its probably going to be one of my last public speaking stints of me as a broadrician. talking about that, i guess im rather thankful the more arts side of my truly emerged when i started schooling in broadrick.

remembering the times when i was mad about athletic practices in kong hwa, that school has probably gone through some major transformation after i graduated. but for now, enough of typing, the shower's waiting! sighh, hoping the gang could go out soon!

splitting headache

2006-05-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

boy if only i could be sec 3. today's the last day of term 2 and the month-long break begins for all non-graduating classes. i wonder how much of the holiday this is going to be for the fellow o level takers like me. school's already issued the june holiday supplementary schedule and to be rather frank, it seems indifferent from the normal school timetable.

mid year results was an all-time high. and just when i thought it would be a good chance for an application for dsa, the avenue closed. acjc isn't gonna take people from drama. but the question mark lies whether theatre studies and drama is what i wanna go for. the interest at surface level sure lies, but i wonder if the capability exists. just like literature. interest interest interest and reading the text is never a problem. but i seem to have an uncrossable barrier when it comes to attaining high grades.

clearly even my dad makes that observation commenting that why it is a b4 when i supposedly like literature. ms chua told him that i should take care of my health. yup for the first time, i think so too. i guess the pressure is just there over the fact that im sec 4. ive probably never been sick so many times in a year and this year just created a new record. just like right now, a blocked nose and a splitting headache. panadol extra seems to be working as a placebo now.

for now, its looks like my education in university is gonna lie between linguistics, psycology, social sciences, theatre and more of the art aspects. i guess im leaving the option of accounting and finances but screw the science as business sector. my heart is far from there but clearly my dad's is stuck to it.

brrr. don't think i can continue typing. anyways, to all my classmates at 4eA, gang people, church mates, golfing team, former khs6/6[04] and everyone who's taking their mother tongue paper on monday. all the best!

quick type

2006-05-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

just had this sudden urge to update. so here i am blogging in the midst about exams. im probably not going to be looking forward to results day. i cant really remember a paper which i didnt screw up. but thats the life of a sec 4 student. constant worries. ive like emaths 2, amaths1/2, bio1/2, lit2 and cl listening before liberation day comes and i go watch the da vinci code. anyone wants to come along?

but the after exam period doesnt seem all that free. lit course, glass menagerie play, artsfest, chinese Os, and planning for pesa. talking about pesa. my 2nd attempt. and yes ill be serious this time. but i must say the topics this year sucks. socialization and emotions / cybernetics and the social system, does anyone have a clue on what to write?

god election's over will these people stop talking about pap's dominance over the seats in parliament. this notion seems to be the hot topic on every occasion my family meets at the dining table ever since the nominee's face/s plagued the lamp posts of the district. yeah lets just face it. pap, with its all white outfit complements the red coloured seats in parliament hall. but i doubt id ever trust my life with the opposition.

june's prolly going to be mugging month whether i like it or not. the prospect of leaving on a jet plane clearly is diminishing but the one alternative would be to travel across the causeway just for the sake of it. i guess the stress reliever only comes after my last paper for the O levels. which the day after i'd prolly have planned (months before) to reclaim the life that i lost to textbooks and ten years series.

the day was spent reading biology and teaching shanker chemistry. i should really start to charge fees. a subject like chemistry racks every of my brain cell and sad to say im far from happy with my performance on the theory papers. perhaps i can only aim to run through the entire syllabus a few more times during the mid years. which is probably what im going to do for every single subject especially literature.

tomorrow's gonna be a long day. theatre discussion with nadia and marc early in the morning and maybe more bio and lit in the afternoon. but whatever it is, it doesnt stray far from academics. yup gonna get a drink and knock off to bed. goodnight people! i need my throat to recover

sixteen

2006-04-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

sixteened

titleless?

2006-04-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

where should i start?

yesterday was indeed memorable for me. as i emceed for my last speech day in broadrick. to be honest, i was rather blown away by quite alot. mona, lisha and ahmad have been amazing juniors. i guess theyve seriously come a looooonnnngg way. getting scolded by the principal because they did a bad job when i went for my blood test and depicting all their nerves ever since the first rehearsal. i guess many of us need to learn to hide our nervousness. reading the wrong word is constantly on my mind as im up on stage but a good speaker hides his/her nervousness.

indeed there were mistakes. but at the end of the day im proud that all 3 of them rose to the occasion. the eldds drama too. props. 3 weeks. and they produced something rather amazing. my last speech day was indeed well spent and relieving. next year, its all up to the juniors ;)

today was the last auditions for the theatre productions. and weve finally completed out cast. admittedly, the theatre production and all other commitments i have in school and at home have put so much pressure on me at times the thought of giving up just comes through. i mean like mid years are just a few days after i turn 16 and mother tongue Os are looming. to be honest, im not at all prepared.

had this really huge fight with someone i really cared for this morning. he starts to question and scrutinize what i really want in life. and what ive done to do the family proud. i was taken aback. during the moments when you feel like all the effort that youve put in for something you tried so hard for just isnt worth it anymore, it hard to control the streams of tears that tries so hard to break down that dam youve built.

i dont know what i feel this way, but it occurs to me that family has never been a part of my life. whenever i think of whether or not i can make it for something, family dinners never crossed my mind, its whether i need to study or do i have something on with my friends. i sign my own consent forms - no one simply cares. my roles in the family is really negligible. im sorry but i was really affected by the fact that my dad didnt bother to call when i was down with viral infection the last week. ive no idea if he knows i took 3 blood tests during that week, and while i was sick i literally had to go get food myself without help. not that im saying i need to be served. but for heaven's sake, if war strikes, this family dies first. there is barely any food - the last i checked the situation would be a norm if i was born in africa. it seems like im spending so much money buying food outside and shopping at the supermarket when these actions are on the agenda of my friend's parents.

so what is the role of a family in my opinion? perhaps namesake and money. if money is an obligation my dad thinks that he has to fufil on the account of his absence whilst working in shanghai, i think im worth more than that. lets just see if he will be in town on my 16th birthday. to be honest, this year, i really dont need any present or whatever from him. if he really is concerned and understanding, he would get me what i really NEED. to which ive beseeched on countless occasions.

in the house, my views are never heard. im just a kid! im still young! exclamins the many naive adults. and sometimes i really wished that i could return to that dumb self in kindergarten where time could be indulged in watching a fat purple dinosaur dancing and to be in utmost opulence would mean the company of my power ranger toys. life's different now. like im surrounded with nothing but troubles and books and the questions of my future.

why think so far? at times i ask. why make kids think of their ambitions when some might end up prefering to go one step at a time. this is an extremely melancholic post. dont know why im writing it. i guess my birthday wishes for this year really isnt anything of materialism. i just hope future call history isnt filled with a tons of friends names and never my dad's. how much of family i have left and really care for i guess those closer to me would know.

tomorrow life will go on. church, study, maybe out. need a new dictionary urgently.
goodnight.

virally infected

2006-03-22T19:58:00.000+08:00

still down with fever and a bad throat. and i haven't been to school in 2 days. plus tomorrow actually on the account i have to go for a second blood test.

it all started on sunday when i was down with a slight fever. din think it was anything bad though. doctor gave me some paracetamol, the amoxycillin antibiotic tablets i hate and cough mixture. usual. i was covered for monday but kinda went to school cos i din want to miss lessons. but, BIG MISTAKE. sneezed for the whole day until my uniform was bacteria-infested with mucus and my eyes were awfully red. so i just went back to the clinic for some runny nose tablets. this was monday.

but my fever continued to rise and rise until it hit 39 and i decided to skip school on tuesday. things din really rock at time becos the aircon wasnt any where near cooling and i put everything i could on my head too easy my discomfort. but tuesday really sucked. temperature for the whole day showed no improvement. so at night, aunt decided that i should go see the doctor again and ask for a jab so that at least i might be able to go to sch the next day.

BUT, my gp decided to say, "3 days fever dont drop have to go hospital for blood test." my jaws dropped. firstly its just a longer lasting fever and i have to go for a blood test. ewwww. so at about 9pm, i was in the cab going to tan tock seng hospital for a blood test. believe me i was freaking out. the last time i took a blood test was when i was tiny and it was a horrendous experience. this time wasnt an exception. but at least i din scream.

at the hospital literally, they stole my blood, forced me to pee (i drank duno how many cups of water just for that). and for the blood test results i had to wait like for a hour while my aunt was irritating me throughout the wait. when my name was called the doctor was like, the results show that your platelets count is below normal. but if it goes lower it might be dengue. for now its a viral infection. what virus the results cant tell now.

so, i will have to dreadfully drag myself to the clinic for a second blood test tomorrow. all the best to me really. but on a much higher sombre, this week seems much better than my holidays. i could really do with this rest. nothing on my mind, since im not allowed to exert myself, no school, no cdc, no nothing. it really rocks :) but undoubtedly, im panicking about the 1001 lessons ive missed, plus a/e maths and english test and god knows what.

let me just side track for a while, i came across something that was kinda interesting.
In France there is a saying, joie de vivre, which actually doesn't exist in the English language. It means looking at your life as something that is to be taken with great pleasure and enjoy it.

p.s. happy birthday nadia!

holi what?

2006-03-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

AUDITIONS AGAIN!
25MARCH06 SINGAPOREPOSTCENTRE LVL2
11AM-3PM

lets see, computer just hung and my post went missing.

debate motion one: this house believes that the holidays were spent fruitfully.
ladies and gentlemen, lets me tell you what i mean by holidays. it is a day free from work that one may spend at leisure, especially a day on which custom or the law dictates a halting of general business activity to commemorate or celebrate a particular event. and when i mean fruitfully, i mean spent doing something that was depicted results. clearly the debate would be truistic for the way to win would be to stand on the opposition.

this installment of the debate camp was special for me because i guess i do remember that it was where i tried so hard not to fall asleep amidst all the numerous neverending slides. not forgetting the place where i prolly met a million and one people.

but thanks for the card guys! i dont really know what the ping pong ball signifies but i sure am keeping it. i hope that i dont end up at zouk ever again. the music sucks. terribly i have to say. AND im never, i repeat, never ever going to be on any teenage forum or pow wow or whatever funny things. seriously, i always end up dumbfounded. put me in a debate. it works better even if i end up losing. but a forum? bad idea.

we completed perfection today! finally after a long long time. as such i dont have to think of it for a long long time. a blessing? perhaps. i just remembered i have an amaths and emaths test on week 1. eurgh. i still want my a1 for double maths. my results for term 1 highly exceeded my expectations and sure im satisfied. but i guess i really need to put in effort to have such standards maintained or i can forget about a decent college. but now that so many things are on my mind, at times i truly ask myself what i really want in the future and sometimes i feel fairly deluded by it.

nadia's emceeing at some citizenship thingy and it was kinda amusing seeing her attempt to pronounce the indian names. but haha good luck. what else? marc and his piano exam? he'll do fine. if dewei can pass violin exam practicing the night before, anyone can. think thats all for now.

random

2006-03-04T21:14:00.000+08:00

i dont really know why im doing this. but yeah. just have a sudden urge to post something. i dont really know what i want to post exactly, so let me just do the few milestones that happened over the past week.

1. consumption of curry rice has brought about rashes all over me and i finished 1 bottle of calamol lotion in one day.
2. went to see lido today but saw something interesting. so jas, how was your movie?
3. i screwed my chem redox test.
4. i did miraculous job in combined humanities
5. acquired my beautiful zara jacket (but brought about a hole in my pocket)

speech day emceeing. dont even want to think about it. NOTE: i am under no condition going to allow my body to sustain the torment of the ugly, casino worker look alike red blazer of brd.

but im still pondering over why there are so many drama rehearsals. it seems like im not acting (thank god) but i have to attend the rehearsals. i mean i dont mind attending some. but all? filming for perfection is already dateless. but ill figure something out. theres always the request for an excuse letter.

nadia's turning 16 like pretty soon and i prolly have like around 2 weeks to get a nice present. btw she took a picture of her cookie and made it my wallpaper. but the problem, dumb combined rehearsals are taking away all my fridays until 7th april. firstly good luck to all the up coming common test. i have no idea how many lit lessons we are going to miss again. but yeahh. this is going to be tough.

id wish better things could happen.
its been time since i heard from you. stay safe!

audition

2006-02-20T22:58:00.000+08:00

ACT,
SING,
DANCE,
MODEL?

WE NEED YOU!

here's a chance for you to SHINE in our very first theatre production!

if you are between 13-19, come down for an audition on the
24feb (THIS FRIDAY) @ 3pm,
singapore post centre (beside paya lebar mrt)
level 5!

tell all your friends and spread the word around quick!
till then!

slow com

2006-02-03T13:37:00.000+08:00

whatever has been with blogger these few days. seems to have tons of problem accessing.

anyways. happy lunar new year guys! in the year of the dog it mean more diligence and determination (sorry, i just found words beginning with d). cny this is year is kinda low key though. dont ask me though. as usual, the gambling came into play. but whatever. i got to wear new clothes.

it chingay later! and i get to paint people's faces. god, believe me they actually bought oil-based paint. good luck in washing it off. but its going to be bloody tiring i so can tell. and then there's the actual tomorrow. even more tiring? expected!

swaying away, let me question myself why i should answer certain phone calls. to start with, i think i told you a gazillion times that i am busy. busy with what doesnt concern you. i dont see why i should receive belligerent smses questioning my actions. i do need time for myself and time for things i am committed to. so i hope you know where im coming from and understand that unless there should be urgency in the conversation, i'd rather rely on email and msges.

not asleep yet?

2006-01-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

exhausting.

was supposed to go parliament house today. but got postponed. adults always use miscommunication as an excuse. amaths is getting on my nerves. never seem to get diffrentiation right. like simplification of algrebraic stuff have never been more difficult. but i leave it halfway done. dont really care.

being able to give up physics is such a liberation. free periods have been spent script writing, completing english teacher and simply slacking. i seriously want to read like the english teacher perhaps at least 3 more times. mastura is seriously too slow. and then i have to go back to the glass menagerie.

i so want to do well for lit. ms huang is getting so irritating. i wonder what the hell she is teaching. all i know, we are visiting the asia pacific breweries to see how to make beer. apparently its in out syllabus. look at the kind of aspirations they want us to have.

being sec 4 seriously sucks. barely have space to breathe. but anyways, it cny soon. im going to be waiting for red packets. auntie joe sent a box of clothes (it reaches my waist btw) apparently she bought stuff from saks. well im not complaning. but i still decided to splurge on some other stuff.

anyways, script writing is kinda like part of my routine. but does anyone want to help me? the more i look at my script, the more i find that the language and words doesnt flow. im having problems with the current one. god, sent me inspiration. anyways, before i fall asleep in class tomorrow, i'd better be off.

sec 4 sucks

2006-01-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

i like today. marc nadia and i did perfection. and unlike the screw-up yesterday (yes i forgot lines. quit rubbing it in). today was cool. no forgetting of lines. actions were better. our chemistry is quite good i have to say.

and guess what BIG plans they have for perfection? i wished i could tell you but lets keep it as a surprise for now.

im just updating for the sake of it haha. totally no inspiration for writing compo. anyways, nadia's going on suria soon. so bye.

schooooool

2006-01-05T17:05:00.000+08:00

now im actually turning 16 this year. its really hard to believe that im actually taking my Os this year. but well, reality bites back.

the new broadrick campus is kinda cool. im starting to get flashbacks of the times when i shifted to the new kong hwa campus back when i was p2. without the mundane walk though. but seriously the class needs a bin! heard we're getting lockers soon. its horrendously easy to get lost in the school because the blocks hardly have tables. and if you happen to be having pe or at some random location having lessons, looking for toilets isnt the easiest thing.

this year i guess my teachers are slightly better than last year's. mrs remedios is taking us for english. i like for the fact that she teaches are nice vocab. and i dropped physics! *runs around like mad person*. i got song for chinese! at least i know im in the 2nd class which doesnt put me in the position of being a cheena whatever you call.

enough of rambling though. its time to revise my amaths. and no im not enthusiastic. ciao.

2006

2006-01-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

31dec05
a bright and early waking up at like 8am to like pack my stuff and polish my shoe. had to go rehearse perfection at marc's house cos we had to perform it later on. but uh oh, we only had like 2 hours. but anyways, we had some of the hardest coordinating actions to do. i forgot lines here and there during rehearsal and i dont think we ever completed one successful full round.

then it was a change into our full black outfit as headed down to rouge at peranakan place. my intial idea was to leave early and take a bus but we had too little time to rehearse so we left later. its not an excuse alright. once we arrived at rouge it was prepping for the party. didnt do much though, poor people who got face painted.
but midway, it started raining cats and dogs and turnout was quite disappointing. but no matter what, we had happening people who were there.

perfection time came. i wonder who came up with DAMN productions (without the a). just like usual, i kinda forgot my lines. but marc was even funnier, he completely forgot one part of his and turn back to look at nadia and i who were sitting down and thankfully nadia covered. but it was good, ranjeet and ian liked it.

we were dancing like mad people and my legs hurt badly cos i was dancing in dress shoes. seriously couldnt be bothered to change back into my dunks. and somehow i won some award which i still find it rather surreal. then it was dinner at burger king @ plaza sing. reminisce of the PESA times, we sat there for quite a while, trying to decide where to fruitfully celebrate new year's eve.

decided on esplanade area where we saw ranjeet and alden at city hall going for ducktours. hell was the place packed. by then, only marc mwen and debbie stayed on. the whole singapore seems to be out of their homes. but after alot of walking, we decided to settle somewhere around marina.

01jan06
fireworks were great. it really brought out alot of the new year's ambience. and this year i guess was special for the fact that i didnt have to countdown in front of the tv. i guess friends make alot of difference. if only more people couldve been down.

it was hard to get a cab there and marc's initial idea was to walk all the way home. but thank god mwen's mum came that brought us halfway. really tiring day. but undoubtedly fun. oh and i forgot, bro's back! on surprise with sandra! but he's going bali tomorrow. woke up really late today. and went for church at 5. ended up being on time. quite rare. but dinner with bro and sandra was fun for the first time in donkey years. sandra was laughing at the food deco all night and i wonder why.

new years resolution
1. take less cabs
2. cut down on msn (yes i will)
3. do a DAMN good job for the theatre production
4. study like a million times harder
5. read a ton more

well i guess ushering in the new years also means alot more ahead. to everyone reading this and especially my friends whom i so dearly care for have a great year ahead! happy new year!

christmas

2005-12-24T18:45:00.000+08:00

a busy hectic schedule is what ive been experiencing all week. day by day ill see myself in town shopping like a mad person for all my friends, cousins, golf and church people. this year, i was very surprised that i didnt go over budget. but the unfortunate thing happens to be that i didnt really get anything new to wear. i badly wanted a watch (which is coming) and a new pair of shoes perhaps. but nevermind. chinese new year is in the end of jan.

cdc has also been rather busy. i landed in singapore at like 6am. very unearthly i know. and before you know it, i was in the cdc at like 11am attending a meeting. but it sure is great to hear nadia's voice after missing it for so long. marc and i got boxers from thailand. full of elephant prints, and we're expected to wear it one of these days.

oooh and thinking of it, oi sleeping beauty closed yesterday. thank god. that show was so painful to watch. whoever wrote the script must have gotten inspiration from a primary school. but the stupid part came after the show ended. i started panicking after i thought i left my phone back up at my seat. and marc, nadia, rishik and rae just had to see me panic once. but on the account that i found my phone, theyre forgiven.

anyways, gotta go now. dinner first and church later. MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS! GOD BLESS YOU!

i cant access my own blog

2005-12-14T19:48:00.000+08:00

theres a big problem with my dad's computer that makes me unable to see every single website from blogspot. lemme reply some tags from the admin table that i saw.

lili it was impossible to prepare your peabrain for anything. and mind you, i have been speaking the lagauage of english ever since the plane touched down. not very cheena i have to say
jia-hao dont dare me. im going shopping only tomorrow. and until i hear an apology, the jeans can remain on the shelf. jeans have very long shelf life i must say. and tell me youve done something for the gathering please.
krystal ok linked.

i realised i update more when i abroad. wonder why. started with golf this morning, oops afternoon. i just decided to wake up late. finally realised that the bed is actually made of rock and apparently has functionalities to straighten your back. sorry, but i sleep most of the time on my side.

im trying to link myself to golf somehow and it seems futile. today was seriously shit. somehow, this drastic change my father initiated to my playing made it such that it was almost impossible to straighten my left arm. i feel like an amateur starting from the half swing. and the penguin outfit im fitting myself in restricts my body movement so much, i think i can remember how many balls i hit actually passed 100. the number should be within finger counting range. (note i played 90 balls) bad bad bad ratio.

but anyhows the club is kinda cool. apparently the only golf villa they have in suzhou. how pathetic. if only the weather could be just a little warmer. pardon my naiveness, but this open air driving range actually allows me to hit the balls straight into the water. i wonder how cool it would be to actually be able to dive down the pond (or is it river) to get the balls.

and somehow i find the lifestyle here rather lacking in privacy. well it seems like the chauffeur cant stop staring at my ass. well id say this because through the course my attempt to change golf styles (very unwillingly reluctant of course) it seems like my every move is monitored by his eyes. thank you, but wrong time for paparazzzi.

anyways, dad and i went for dinner shortly after. and im kinda bloated with the steak. but at least the filetmignon was good.

im jealous of those back on puny island. i completely forgot that it was the fianle of the amazing race. (perhaps lili would be dancing by now). yes i can wait till i reach singapore and download it. think i'll go shower for now. bye.

shanghaizzzz

2005-12-13T14:21:00.000+08:00

the temperature is freezing my ass out. im dressed like a penguin wherever i go. what the hell am i doing in a foreign land which is obnoxiously filled with drivers who apparently cant keep their hands off the horn. -1 degrees this morning. singaporeans! i'm envious!

thank goodness we have a driver here. i kinda like the car. there's heat that warms up my ass and massage for my back. nothing else thats much to enjoy about. the ion cluster heaters takes forever to heat up. the bed's hard like a rock.

think. itd be over in a few days. everyone's missed. gotta go.

guess guess guess

2005-12-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

dont scream people. dad's going insane, at 7pm today, he graciously told his son to fly back to shanghai with him. and his flight happens to be on the 13th at 12midnight there abouts. im going to be playing golf in ice. and guess what? i hardly have any winter clothings prepared yet. its THREE degrees celsius! oh god save me save me.

its been a really long day, 6am was the time i woke up, remind when i last manage to do it. i was trudging a lugguage to alex's studio. disaster was starting to set in i could tell. for the first time, i feel makeup tightening up my face making it feel funny and kinda hard to smile.

god knows how much of hair spray and hair clay went up my hair before the guys finally managed to spike it up. dont worry, im as surprised i actually allowed it to happen. and trust me i hate posing. shant elaborate further.

carolled after that at bible house. acapella songs are horrendously difficult. getting the right key and pitch right aint easy at all.

anyways, too tired to continue blogging. gotta go edit script. till my return.

awww we'll miss nadia!

2005-11-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

nadia left for thailand today for her 17 day english-teaching mission trip. sawadeeka (sp?). marc, rishik, michelle and i plus the flingers (oops sounds mean) were there to send her off. undeniably, we're all going to miss that voice of hers for the next few weeks. awww.

i love this week! on monday, i was at marc's place with nadia. and hmmm, i got brutally attacked by bryan (marc's piggy brother) while being pinned down by both the van huizens. i still find bryan's middle name rather unique. ashleigh. but nadia was experiencing some excruciating pains midway through. i was feeling very much worried becos her face was as pale as a paper trust me.

but thereafter, she felt much better and she brought adam along to swensens! runescape. *reminisces about the primary sch days*. bryan and adam's conversation were just like what my ex-classmates and i used to talk about all day long. confession, marc is meaner to his family than anyone else. shant elaborate. you see learn from me! dont bring siblings along! but sure the day was fun.

yesterday was even better. nadia called me last minute to the cdc to inform me about some changes. marc's visit to out 2nd home for the 1st time in ages. anyways, we came up woth a concept in 15 minutes. wow! im proud of us! but unfortunately the last minute meeting caused us to be terribly late to meet the others for bowling. sorry!

kyle bowls a 14-pounder effortlessly and you can picture the impact. then changed at nadia's. and we were off! to the ESPLANADE! the 3 best friends were going to watch a twist of fate together! excellent plot. superb actors. fabulous set. the puns they used injected the best amount of humour. i'd be jealous if i had the vocal range of any of the actors. a twist of fate is one of the best musicals i've ever watched. those who havent catched it. you better!

2005-11-25T00:49:00.000+08:00

just too distinctive.
hey you i know who you are. try harder.

its not all about what you think

2005-11-25T00:38:00.000+08:00

superficial?
think again.

it brings me to a loss when all has to happen in such quick flashes. do some people actually know what the hell is going at all one time? at times, i feel that maybe somethings are just better kept the way it is.

perhaps the people who think they know me well dont. i do have to admit that many a times the closest people to me are those who spend the most time with me. what have you honestly done to prove that you are worth my due respect? well, i'm rather doubtful.

saying that i've never done anything to make you proud. when have you ever given me any faith. name 5 things ive actually done that have gained recognition? well, i'm rather doubtful.

even a dimwit knows that something done over 5 months would produce something much better compared to that done in 5 minutes. you know it goes to show your sincerity once again. you think everything is an effortless act. when does my name ever appear on a page of your memo? say our relationship isnt that brittle? well, i'm rather doubtful.

if all your intentions of this return is to hope that you dont want to owe me anything anymore. get lost. i'm not that kind of person. think you know me well? well, i'm rather doubtful.

and if looking at me for 5 minutes and expecting me to forget everything, i'll try, but well, i'm rather doubtful.

anomosity

2005-11-17T16:09:00.000+08:00

this post is going to be rather wierd because i'm deciding to write on a very unexpected accord. warning, if you can't read dragging compos, speed read. its the longest entry i've ever posted!

to start with, if you haven't, do grab a copy of the december issue of teenage magazine. south east youth fashion fiesta 05 has a 6-page feature with glamourous shots by our very own youth models and an interview with marc, nadia and i featured. sadly but yup, marc and i dont remember saying such things. but its not that bad so i'm fine with it. apparently my dad doesn't believe his dear son appeared in a magazine despite the fact that he read the entire article. but he told me to frame it up though. ironic.

the 11&12th of this month was spent at the singapore management university facilitating the second installment of aspiration camp. and hell was it a BLAST! i wont hide the truth that we did have a rocky start in trying to plan for the camp, meeting deadlines, garnering people, late-night stay in the cdc and the list goes on. but i guess the determination of all my fellow facilitators from both the y2y network and smu, working with them was indeed a pleasure.

this time, more spontaneous individuals were brought in to the camp, clearly depicted since the first day of registration. i still remember how i hid behind during sharmila's belly dancing session in june. but this batch, you could see guys (and yes girls as well) shaking their booties and being actively involved in putting together a great dance. also, there was bridgette aw (mrs singapore international) who came down specially for a session on grooming. trust me, i do salute her strength to be able to stage a flawless comeback despite losing her husband to cancer 3 years ago. i mean imagine being both the man and the woman in the house now, the amounts of courage needed to overcome all those grief and what not.

its becoming more like a usual occurence to me that its only until the final periods of any events that i start to really work. countless amounts of last minutes arrangements and panicking(sp?)and yes some yellings that really got the show running. tania's group really impressed me by the way she choreographed a dance in that short amount of time and yet made it look professional.

this aspiration camp was definetly a time and chance for the scouting of potentials to join the main comm in assisting future projects. the number of people who have depicted their interests in helping out was indeed overwhelming and it was kinda sad that we could only pick the best to join us. but one thing's for sure, the future opportunites in being guest relation officers remain open for all to come. its the always the camaraderies formed on the last two days that makes me feel that all that was done was worth.

several issues i think i should address

1. the influence of people
just when you thought things were going fine, there are now instances where trust simply cannot exist and you start doubting. it amazes people how people can actually judge themselves. to be honest, i'm fine with that. but not when it comes to instance where it has to be told straight to your face that you have a huge Problem with a capital P. imagine receiving phone call in the midst of all that hectic work, only to realise that its the "ridicule" slot on someone else's timetable and you're the victim! im starting to think that all the help i gave was for no purpose at all and i shouldnt anymore. i'm fine if you're concerned. but apparently it has become a "im definitely right" situation which i absolutely detest.

2. cunning thoughts
i find it rather amusing when a person's problem turns and become's yours. and you comtemplate over every step as everything is at stake here. as i told my friends, there are alot of people out there who pretend to make superb first impressions, acclaim their goal then say goodbye. the traditional thoughts of gratitude is almost negigible. the false identities created for the sake of a particular attainment, whether for pleasure, or its natural attitude it saddens me.

anyways, i wonder how many people have actually read till the end. they would probably have been bored to death. good luck to those having their chemistry paper tomorrow! the long fought battle is almost over!

whatever

2005-11-06T20:29:00.000+08:00

yes siantzu i havent been updating for a long while. but i'm doing it now. i guess alot has happened over the period of blog tranquility. and this long overdue post would consolidate all of that.

fashion fiesta was a blast. knowing the numbers of hours we put in actually produced such a cool show blowing away the number of people that came to our support. working with some of my good friends was one experience i think would be hard to forget. that night, i was mainly in charge of the backstage and models. wow the most difficult department i have to say. but hell was it an experience. 16 hours of event management sure made me tougher!

next event of significance, results. the last 2 days of school were spent in ngee ann poly doing some stock challenge. i miraculously toyed with 1k to make something close to 6k in a matter of a few hours. if ONLY you were talking about cold hard cash! i'll be strutting down broadway!

anyways its going to be dream come true very very soon! dewei's going to new york city! if only it could be for christmas! but nevermind. new york city! theres alot of shopping to be done on 5th and broadway. and i'll prbabaly be satisfied. i'm not that sure if i should suggest to my dad to head up north to the niagara(sp?) falls in toronto. but so long as i finally get to shop its good. oh and i'm definetly eating at sbarro's(sp?) and whatever that steak shop is called. i vaguely remembers it starts with a "w" i think.

and thennnnn. its genting! with my best buddies! oh god. december is a very anticipated month indeed! to be honest, i feel kinda sorry for marc, rishik and the rest. yes i know the o levels are like tomorrow. but pls, you guys have been preparing months ahead for this. and i'm so very sure you guys can so do it!

stomach's growling guys! gotta go get dinner! bye!

october

2005-10-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

first post of october. i know im not supposed to be updating now becos i freakingly have 3 papers tomorrow and the time could me much well allocated to revising physics. but common sense would tell you how much i suck at it.

today's paper was very much depressing. i studies like nothing, with the accompaniment of panadol extras yesterday for like hours trying to get facts of chemistry into my head. but today, i was completly stupefied as i reached moles questions. i had absolutely NOT A SINGLE clue on how to start the question and i just found moles for everything i could and limiting reactant whether its needed or not.

on the contrary, i simply spend not much time on amaths and i could do most of the questions. and including a proving of trigo identity without any help. so i celebrated by supposed victory by writing DEWEI PROVED AN IDENTITY on my answer script only to receive a wierd look from mrs vasughi whom i could tell was amused that i could take pleasure in such miniscule stuff. im hoping to do well for amaths becos chemistry was awfully depressing.

tomorrow, its going to be physics and literature (glass menagerie). follwing up i think my hand's going to be numb like nothing for a few hours after again. hmm. anyways, i think i'd go to bed now. cheers.

it feels as if new york city was back on the equator,
and im living in a cave with primitive tools.

supposed determination

2005-09-30T19:13:00.000+08:00

if i do complete this post, using the sheer determination im kinda suppose to possess for the revision for my finals. unfortunate but im sick of doing quadratic eqns for emaths. and i'll prolly go to some other chapters later. and im actually doing revision!

anyways, today was another day of school duh. i think im benefitting from ms chua's maths revision. finally huh.

dumb mr fong seriously needs english lessons. and lemme emphasize that even a primary one entry mightnt be adequate. the definition for short happens to be having a little length; not long. but apparently, his meaning of a short jog meant another canal run. naturally we didnt have the mood to run and stuff.

so, the andropause switch started to turn on, and he stopped us halfway, and i could only anticipate a lecture ahead. but apparently, there was some SHIT, literally faeces right beside leslie and the poor hand of his just got contaminated. but then, he continued talking and talking about some crap regarding bad attitude (by default actually). and i wonder how aquainted with shit he happens to be with because while i was on the verge of choking, his "lecture" strayed all the way to whether we watch the apprentice or not.

literature lesson today was personally very much melancholic. entering the class with the "i cant believe that we have 2 lit papers" attitude, ms mastura gave us a short story to read. ok fine read.

suddenly she said,"should we get someone to read this? its quite short." and then yours truly had to unwillingly do it. BECAUSE, the hokkien word of vagina was inside and why the hell does the author have to use such a word. but naturally i skipped the word while reading it. then as we were discussing the entire passage, i finally realised the true capabilities of my literature standards. horrendously pathetic.

every single thing that i think of happens to be so superficial i have no idea how to think deeper. and i guess thats the reason why i havent been getting as high i should have been. and i need literature for my l1r5 looking at the standard of my sciences. and this brain of mind has just got to stop pondering between poly and jc.

i think you'll prolly be bored to death after read all my rambles. but at least i posted. gimme some credit. maybe all will really be fine after some time

paranoia

2005-09-29T22:50:00.000+08:00

here comes the dust clearing company.

the owner has yet to visit his adobe (or is it abode? whatever) for some time. anyways, my language papers are in like a few days time and preparations for exams actually started. but its so non-existent it'd be better off as not. but at least i started, the first time since never.

anyways, the exam timetable cant suck more. while telling us that broadrick is a ONE STAR whatever school, we happen to be so lucky as to have on the 13/10, chemistry 1&2 and amaths ON THE SAME DAY! 14/10 physics 1&2 and literature 1. 17/10 emaths 1&2 and literature 2.

for the first time in my life, someone actually said that literature papers isnt really that demanding. well the last time i checked, the moment i started writing, it never stopped till forever. so i wonder how much brain juice is going to be left after the train line of papers.

and once exams end, its meeting^3 and preparations^3 for sfw. but im schooless on the 19th & 20th so i have 2 full days to prepare whatever i need. BUT im sure looking forward to the outcome. im honestly taking too long to write this. i'll try to continue tomorrow.

long time no blog

2005-09-11T12:35:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i last visited this page. and the holidays just zoomed passed, honestly you cant really call it holidays, because, not only have i not touched my books for revision, EVERYDAY is an opening for some last minute event, and maybe some preplanned one.

anyways, its sept 11 today. grievances for those who perished in the 911 event. lets just hope i finally get to visit ground zero nearing christmas. but looking at the current stats, i see my chances diminishing as my dad left for shanghai today. lets just hope he finally decides to care about his supposedly DEAR son he calls one of these days.

and mao's turning 16 today. and his prelims for i think ss happens to fall tomorrow. after being notified by rishik's blog, he cancelled our celebration last minute due to tuition. lets just say ive been used to all these tuition excuses compliments of singapore's hectic education system. but the blame falls on no one. its a give and take kinda issue.

and emma dislocated her arm on friday. honestly, till today, i find it kinda surreal on how puck playing could actually dislocated ones arm, and the miraculous thing, the dislocation came one day after. it sounds more as if u'd hit your hand my the bed side unintentionally which caused your hand to be in a cast. but i'll be nice and be your secretary for the next few days. or should it be weeks.

the remnants of friday still linger in my mind. everytime i start lying on the bed, it never fails to prompt me on how tired i actually was after friday's shoot. i was working for more than 12 hours. amazing how 15 years of living actually moulded my body into that much of perfection. but in anyways, i would like to thank all who turned up on that day whether committee members or gro's who have helped in the event. you guys were seriously great. (p.s.: my back still aches from that days crap)

so, gotta jet now. its the day where i complete the piles of homework remaining (or have yet to be touched)

ilovethekids

2005-08-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

woohoo! the debates are FINALLY over. it has been helluva day and firstly i would like to thank ms nadia for all that she has done yesterday, the day before, and the times before. it seriously wouldnt have worked out had it not been for you quick thinking.

to all those who were audiences, thank you so so so much for taking time off and coming. i guess i do feel one thing. for every debate we attend, there is sure something we had gained. knowledge is not measured but instead accumulated.

well, a mini competition is still a competition. first round was quite a walkover. but best speaker still surprised me. as i was collecting the adjudication sheets, i was quite surprised to see so many xinni's in the best speaker slot. for the second round however, it was really a close fight. the margins were all like 0.5-3 which is pretty close compared to the other round where there we like 8-ish. best speaker, went to bryan cheang. and second best, went to selvam! i duno why but i felt sujita should have gotten either one.

anyways, i would seriously like to thank EVERY SINGLE ONE who has contributed in one way or other. especially to min for all the adjudicators she called. thanks so so so so much. the demo debates about women doing more harm than good was amusing to watch because those debaters were simply trying humiliate each other. but i guess as a debater being new to the field, the least i could to is try to get to that standard.

then came the pertapis children home visit. marco, kash and i cabbed there. but decided that out tummies were almost digesting the mucus lining, so stopped over at heartland mall for a bite and that made us almost 45mins late. the first impression wasnt really good cos even ellie said that it looks like a prison cos theres barbed wired all around. then as we stepped into the home, the feeling became different. chanel(sp?) was introducing us to her thai counterparts and we were later dispered to conduct different activities with the kids.

lets just say im not so arteyfartey so face painting and decorating paper plates just werent my cup of tea. sooooo under some consideration, soccer was i guess the only thing we could do. but i was very much restricted cos i was in jeans and my pockets were filled with my phone, ipod and wallet. yes i know jas, its kinda very eclipse to see marco and i playing soccer. but trust me, we underestimated those kids, i almost lost my dignity when they were leading us by 2 or 3 and were still nil. but thank god we did score a few.

as we started to serve them food, i actually got to know a few of them much better. and sharmila brought tons of toys for those kids and the models had a blast giving them out! and it was sad to see that some kids actually didnt receive much toys. so as we drew out those big packets of art stuff, you could hear the girls saying, "i want! i want!" and really that goes to show how much these little actually mean to them. those boys dont get to play soccer every day and i guess half the time, they are being cooped up somewhere.

it was sad to have to leave the place. and although its hard to see from my expressions, it was hard to say goodbye to those kids, not knowing when out next visit to the place would be. my first visit to these kind of non-profit organisation home was indeed an enriching eyeopener.

what my name actually is

2005-08-20T23:41:00.000+08:00

'Tis but thy name that is my enemy;
Thou art thyself, though not a Montague.
What's Montague? it is nor hand, nor foot,
Nor arm, nor face, nor any other part
Belonging to a man. O, be some other name!
What's in a name? that which we call a rose
By any other name would smell as sweet;

shakespeare might have regarded the power of love as one which could even defy the odds of a family name, but let me clarify that mine remains as YUEN DE WEI.

the singapore poly course today was freaking boring and i was trying to tell myself, its nice its nice. but apparently, other than steven chia's humourous speaking, i found the least relevance of that course to me (at least for now). im not denying the chance of me wanting to work in the media industry not being possible, in fact for someone who is thinking of mass communication, it does sound ironic.

so, we vanished out of the large singapore poly maze (which made us stupidly lost) half way through and hopped on a train to dhoby ghaut for a bite. and guess what, we saw DORA! i wonder why she chose to go lau pa sat cos shenton way is the quietest at that time. but somehow, we saw her at dhoby ghaut again.

then meiwen and i met up with rishik, marco and nadia while yings came later. and marco came up with some moen nashiko and yings came up with the IN concept trying to pride the fantastic 4. while one sounds zen, the other sounds like a furniture shop. no offence.

anyways, nadia and i have planned a full slate of debating activities for the 4 schools on the 27th. and we have actually made it fun for everyone there watching as well. im optimistic about the event and i simply hope the location turns out well without anymore changes.

i hear my bed calling me. ciao.